ramblings to you

i would spend my life waiting for you. i would stay in the same place for the rest of my life if it meant that i could see you everyday. i would never leave, for fear of missing you. i wish sometimes i didn't have to wait and i am sure that you don't want to keep me waiting. If i could i wouldn't love you, it just complicates things. sometimes i wish to myself thati had never met you. that some how i just erased you from my memories. but thatis no way to live. i am who i am now because of you. i wish you could read this. I wish you could read my deepest thoughts and save me from the pain i feel. from the loniliness i feel. but i am sure you can see my secrets when you look into my eyes, & there is no magic you can perform that will heal my broken heart.
it isnt sane to live this way. to wake up everyday knowing another piece of your heart will be lost. but then again... who needs sane.